I’ve been wanting to write about this for quite some time now and was debating whether I should just save this struggle for baby #3’s birth story. Blythe’s post about Mary (and yes, I’m going to link to Blythe’s blog in every post) really sparked me wanting to write down how I’ve come to terms with this pregnancy.
After having our second baby, Daniel and I were both set upon not getting pregnant again for a few years for a number of reasons. We wanted to be able to devote more time to our two boys and take trips. We wanted to pay off our student loans and debt. We wanted to have a bigger spacing between babes because our transition to 2 was pretty difficult for the first few months (extremely attached to mama and still nursing Oliver + everything that is a newborn + learning to divide my attention + recovering from an emotionally and physically challenging birth etc etc etc). I remember us driving back from our annual Big Sur camping trip in October and talking about how guilty I felt that I don’t want a big family and trying to figure out what that means for us and starting to really implement natural family planning as we were on our way to becoming Catholic. We were so set that if we would just be overly cautious for the next few years (lolololol) we would be good. Not to say that we didn’t want more kids, just that WE felt and thought we needed more time.
This lent I had high ambitions of what I was going to take on rather than sacrifice (don’t we all? and I didn’t want to give up sweets because I’m pregnant and all I crave are all things sugary which would mean that would be an amazing lenten sacrifice but alas, I’m not that good). My goals were to learn and pray the morning offering, learn and pray the rosary, be on my phone less, and finally potty train Ollie. At confession a couple weeks ago, my priest asked what I was doing for lent and I said, “I started praying the morning offering and…” then he cut me off and said, “And!? The morning offering is enough! I think it’s so important to use lent as a time to develop new spiritual habits that will continue to enrich your spiritual life once lent ends.”. I so needed to hear this because I was super lazy about everything else I set out to do (minus potty training, which is going great. Thanks for wondering!). So, now that He is Risen and I no longer feel guilty drinking my chocolate milkshakes in front of Daniel, I have developed a new habit that really has helped start my day off right.
We dyed eggs the good ol’ grocery store tablet way (no photos. Maybe next year while I’m boiling beets and onion skin I’ll be more inclined to document it).
I love reading these types of lists because I love learning about things that may be a life changer (and I’m also not very cool and extremely cautious so I’m usually not the first to discover something that’s amazing). Bloggers always have a well designed photo that features all the items with numbers next to it, but I don’t know how to do that. (If there is a photo inserted here it’s because I caved and made Daniel do it once the boys were asleep).
Last Sunday was Atlas’ first birthday which was so special and amazing.