See Kai Run Giveaway!

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Hey guys! Our annual Big Sur camping trip was amazing and I’ll have to find time to type it all up between surviving postpartum life and and binge watching Younger aka postpartum life. BUT! I wanna tell you guys about See Kai Run. I’ve partnered with them before and clearly if you’ve read my blog, I don’t usually collaborate but I make an exception for them because their product is so great and I can vouch for it 100%.

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This time around I went with their waterproof/insulated boots and they are so, so great. The thermal lining is good for up to -35 degrees F!  They still have their signature built-in rubber toe caps and are such sturdy boots. The kids were able to keep them on all day without complaining about wanting to be barefoot (their at home norm) and never complained about their feet being cold. They spent their entire day running around, climbing logs, playing on a playground so that was HUGE.

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See Kai Run focuses on making sure their shoes provide healthy foot development by creating shoes that are both flexible and durable. And most importantly VELCRO so getting them on and off was pretty much a breeze.

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Oliver and Atlas are wearing the Jack WP/IN and Primrose is in the Abby WP/IN.

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I’m hosting a giveaway with See Kai Run over on my Instagram so head on over and enter!

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7QT: The First Month + Photo Catch Up

I don’t even know what to write about because our life lately has been consumed by transitioning to 4 kids. But worry not, I’ll easily find 7 things to ramble about.

1. Postpartum

duh. it’s going well for the most part. I feel pretty much healed up, just still so tired. I can’t even go to bed early because Felix is wide awake from 7-10pm anyway. Emotionally I feel like I’m at a better place than I was 5 weeks postpartum with all my other kids. I wouldn’t say I had postpartum depression or anxiety with my others, but I had pretty bad baby blues after the other 3. Who would have thought having 4 kids would be emotionally easier than 2-3!?

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2. Heartbreaker Prim

Sweet girl is kind of killing me though. She’s struggling hard but I think we are (hopefully) coming out from the hardest days.

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3. Younger

I can’t stop watching this. Perfect laying in bed nursing a babe show to watch. Almost finished with season 3 already…

4. Big Sur

big sur next week! I’m thankful that this trip doesn’t require much thought because we’ve gone so many times so I’m planning on chilling back and sitting by the fire all day long. watch the videos from the other years here:

2016

2015 (my fave)

2014

2011 (first year!)

5. This

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6-7. A Million Photos

Not a million, but pretty much. The fact that I was sitting on so many photos I had yet to document forever on my blog is what fueled me to write this post, so scroll (or click) away…

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Linking up with Kelly!

Happy Friday!

 

 

BB Names: Felix Thomas Wilber

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Felix Thomas Wilber

A couple weeks before we found out we were pregnant, Prim started this new game where she kept calling her cheetah lovey “my baby sister”. So when that pregnancy test showed up positive, I couldn’t help but think, “is this one of those creepy ‘kids can sense these things first’ and I was pregnant with her baby sister???”. We had a super extensive list of boys names, but they all were duds. Daniel and I had been talking baby names a bit before getting pregnant and both fell in love with the name Marigold if we had a girl. A few weeks into this pregnancy, we had our girl name set: Marigold Ines/Inez (couldn’t decide on spelling). When I was looking into the name meaning I discovered that Marigold means Mary’s Gold and is associated with Our Lady of Sorrows who’s feast day is Sept 15 and I was due Sept 18/20! I got all emotional and took it as a sign that maybe I really was having a girl and this was her name! Then I started getting emotional at the thought of NOT having a boy but also the thought OF having a boy because the name was so perfect. Basically just being a hyper emotional pregnant lady. Literally that exact night I had a dream that I was actually having a boy and woke up feeling really refreshed and loving the idea of having a boy (and a little emotional at the thought of not having a girl, haha. Woe is me.).

I initially was thinking of waiting to find out the gender until birth, but after making a trusty Pro/Con list, I knew I should find out since I was prone to end of pregnancy anxiety and the thought of not knowing would probably increase it. So around mid-pregnancy we found out we were having a boy!!

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We were stoked. Although, Prim kept saying for a while, “my baby brother is my baby sister” then changed it to “my baby brother is a poopoo baby” to just “my baby brother”.

So BOY! No name stood out. We would fall in love with a name for one day then hate it the next. I reached out to the lovely Kate from Sancta Nomina to do a name consultation to hopefully get some insight and ideas for names since we were feeling like we were in such a rutt. Kate’s consultation was so great! We loved how she made the connection of our names all relating to nature. Out of her suggestions, we LOVED the name Oscar. For whatever reason, we had always said that if we got a male dog, we’d name him Oscar so we never considered it for a baby, ha!

We went on our babymoon to Paris and was hoping that being there would inspire us and guide us towards a name, but nothing. We came back home still with no name standing out to us.

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I don’t remember how exactly, but the name Felix was popping back up on my radar. I think re-reading the other kid’s naming stories reminded me how Oliver Henry was almost Oliver Felix. I looked up Felix’s name meaning and fell in love.

“Happy, fortunate, lucky”

How cute it that? Plus it’s pretty universal in spelling and pronunciation around the world. Also the name of 4 popes and 67 saints, so it definitely is very Catholic. So we toyed with the name Oscar Felix or Felix Oscar, but then I kept wondering why that sounded so familiar and googled Oscar Felix and got reminded of how the 2 main characters in The Odd Couple are Oscar and Felix so I quickly nixed it. Plus, part of me was wanting the kids to all have a different first initial. I know it’s kind of silly, but after highly considering Oscar, I realized I really liked the idea of them all having a letter to themselves. Maybe I’ll change my mind with the next baby.

So Felix became the top name on our list. I was really in need of an emotional attachment to the name though, and I hadn’t had it yet but those connections did end up coming 2 ways.

The first was someone who commented on one of my posts suggesting the name Felix and referenced Felix Leseur, who I had never heard of. I immediately looked up his story and felt so moved and drawn to him. He was a prominent Atheist in Paris in the late 1880’s (FRENCH CONNECTION!) who married a devout Catholic woman, Elisabeth, in 1889. Long story short (GO READ Ven. Fulton Sheen’s account here – scroll down to his letter), Elisabeth became ill and passed away at the age of 47 and when Felix was going through her papers and journals found this letter she had written to him before she passed away:

“In 1905, I asked almighty God to send me sufficient sufferings to purchase your soul.  On the day that I die, the price will have been paid.  Greater love than this no woman has than she who lay down her life for her husband.”

He was furious over her piety and felt moved to go study and write against Our Lady of Lourdes to disprove it and while visiting the grotto, had an instant vision and conversion. He became a Dominican priest in Belgium and was one of Fulton Sheen’s spiritual advisors. His wife Elisabeth is under the beautification process and currently a Servant of God.

HOW AMAZING.

Second emotional connection happened while I was on day 2 of the Saint Anne Novena. You may remember, but I had the most beautiful and peaceful dream where I met my baby and confirmed that his name was indeed Felix.

Also, I can’t forget to mention that again, just by chance, my baby ended up with a Harry Potter name. Felix Felicis!

So we went into his birth knowing that his name was Felix, but had no middle name set. We had tossed around the idea of using Thomas as a middle name after Daniel’s father because Daniel’s middle name is after his maternal grandfather and his dad’s middle name is after his father, so it’s kind of a thing. Plus we wanted to pay homage to someone on his side of the family especially after using Lucia as a middle name for Primrose after my grandma. So when he was born, it was clear to us that this buddy boy was Felix Thomas.

I also loved the reference to Saint Thomas the Apostle, aka Doubting Thomas. I feel like I was so consumed with anxiety and fear and basically just lacking in trust at the end of my pregnancy, that I feel like I could relate so much with St Thomas’s skepticism with the Lord right in front of him.

Thomas also means, “twin” and I can’t help but feel a connection between St Thomas and Felix Leseur by them both being men who struggled with seeing the beauty of the faith right in front of them and then overcoming their doubts and becoming such devout servants of the Church. I feel like having them as patrons over my little Felix gives me such a sense of peace as Felix grows up and grows (hopefully) deeper into the faith. We love our little man so much and can’t wait to see how his personality and temperament show up to reflect his name.

 

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You can read how the other kids got their names here:

BB Names: Oliver Henry Wilber

BB Names: Atlas James Wilber

BB Names: Primrose Lucia Wilber

 

 

 

7QT: Felix, Postpartum, Felix, Personalities, + Felix

1. FELIX

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Guys, he’s the best thing ever. He’s nursing great (except for last night where I got a nice reminder how how crappy it feels to be leaking all over and ultra engorged. Magical.). He’s sleeping well (if he’s snuggling someone). He’s just the sweetest. Reminds me a lot of baby Ollie.

 

2. Postpartum

Daniel was able to take this week off of work, so I’ve been able to lay in bed a lot which has been nice. I’m healing up pretty well, but when my pain killers wear off I’m an achy ball of mush. So the Advil is pumping. The nurse also wasn’t the greatest at placing the IV and it’s still a bit swollen and tender where they placed it which is really annoying and uncomfortable when I’m nursing on my left side. I washed my hair and put on makeup today so PROGRESS! Still living in sweats and don’t want to think about putting on anything besides them, so baby steps. I’m kind of dreading Daniel going back to work, so I’ll just try to enjoy this weekend of baby cuddles.

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3. Kiddos

I love my kids, I really really do but it must be a hormone thing but the other kids seem so big and smelly and sweaty and LOUD. I think it’s a natural instinct thing so I hand over the reigns to someone else and snuggle my baby instead. Ollie is obsessed with Felix and dotes over him any chance he can. Atlas brings him little things all day long and runs into the room to “take a kiss to Felix” and runs back out. Prim is a little more apprehensive and totally loves on him, but she slips in for cuddles with me and said the other day, “I wish the baby was back in your tummy for 5 more minutes.”.

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4. Reading People

Grace surprised me with this book that came in the mail yesterday and I’m plowing through it! It’s so good! Reading People has such simple explanations of various personality typologies that I’ve already learned so much even with having read so many other books and posts and listened to podcasts on some of these types. Like I think I finally realized that I am more ISFJ than INFJ. I’ve always struggled with Myers-Briggs because I couldn’t place myself but I think I have finally figured it out which is cool! Also the 5 Love Languages. I had struggled with understanding the Gift Giving/Receiving love language because I completely suck at it, but she offered such great insight. Is that your love language? Explain it’s meaning and significance for you to me if you are willing! I’m pretty sure Daniel and I both are Quality Time and I think this season of my life I also gear towards Acts of Service because I am just so overwhelmed all the time so D running to the grocery store or Atlas feeding Poppy just warms my heart. I’m about to be on the chapter about Cognitive Functions and soon onto my fave, the enneagram, so I can’t wait to see what she says about them.

 

5. Palm Sprangs

I forgot to mention that a couple weekends ago we got away for a couples trip to Palm Springs joined by the Pattons, the Fikes, and the Merings! It was so fun! We had been trying to make this trip happen FOR YEARS and was initially supposed to be girls only, but the husbands barged their way in. We rented a house, spent too much money at the spa, and soaked in the pool all day long. Perfection for my then 38 week preggy self.

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6. Felix’s Birth

Oh yeah, did you see his birth story??

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7. Photos

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Linking up with Kelly! Happy First Day of Fall!

 

 

Felix’s Birth Story

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A month ago I would have given anything to know this story as I was crippled with nightly anxiety over this birth. Every pregnancy has resulted with me struggling with this problem in the last couple weeks, but for some reason this time was the worst I’ve experienced to date. Maybe after having a really hard homebirth that resulted in a NICU stay, another difficult homebirth that I can still feel to this day, and a wonderful medicated hospital birth that seemed too good to happen again all made me just so unsure what this birth would end up looking like. But let’s rewind to the start of this pregnancy shall we?

 

Positive

Towards the end of last year, Daniel and I had gotten to a point where we were both starting to have baby fever. We would calculate how old Prim would be if we got pregnant that cycle and thanks to the Marquette Method, we felt like we had so much control and understanding in that area of life. We got kind of lax on charting and switched from that very much trying to avoid pregnancy to ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

While we were in Lake Arrowhead for New Years, I started to notice that I was having some pregnancy signs, but like us ladies know, many of them are the same signs as about to start your period. That Airbnb had 3 flights of stairs and I really started to question if I was pregnant when towards the end of the trip, I was having to hold my chest going up and down them because they felt so tender and sore which isn’t a typical pre-period sign for me. Is this all TMI? I know I want to hear this all when I read birth stories so again, ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

Back at home I anxiously waited until the first possible chance I could get a positive test but got negative. I decided to just wait until the test would be 100% accurate but my friend Amina surprised me with those Clearblue early detection digital tests. I took it and it said, “NOT PREGNANT” but found out that if you opened them and read the stick because we were a little early even for that kind of test, you could tell. So I busted it open and lo and behold, 2 lines!! We were so excited. Later that night I wanted to look into that trick a little more and found out that actually all those tests show 2 lines, pregnant or not. I felt devastated. It felt like I had lost this baby that I didn’t even know if really existed inside me. The next morning was First Friday of the month and I got up early and went to Mass alone because I needed some grounding. At Mass I prayed and asked God to please just give me a clear answer that day whether I was pregnant or not because the “am I? am I not?” was emotionally taxing. Right after Mass I went over to Vons and picked up a 2 pack of First Response tests. I went home and bolted straight to the bathroom, tore the box open, and did my thang. The positive line appeared immediately and my heart felt so at ease. My baby. Really in there. So much love for this tiny human.

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Pregnancy

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I never get TOO sick luckily, so my first trimester was pretty mild to be honest. I just get exhausted. The first trimester breezed on past with me consumed with our trip to Mexico.

 

10 Weeks 

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Shortly after the Mexico trip we found out we were having boy #3!! We were so excited, even little Primmy who was a little in denial at first.

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Unfortunately, I was sick with what I thought was seasonal allergies but ended up being 2 months of “worse than bronchitis” which ate up my second trimester. Luckily I got well just in time for our Paris babymoon trip! Read More